4/12/25: writing i did for small zine:
Fight, flight, freeze and fawn are instinctive responses to danger. These reactions helped our ancestors survive encounters with dangerous animals. In the modern world, however, these responses can work against us… such as the case for people with anxiety disorders and phobias. Selective mutism could also be described as a phobia of speech and a result of the freeze response.
Imagine having paralysing fear whenever you're in a situation you might be expected to speak, and experiencing intense dread after doing so. That’s most days for me, ever since I was 5. SM is a desperate desire for something that terrifies me. It’s made fear and anxiety dictate my life, and won’t surrender unless I confront it every day. It's a battle I'm willing to fight because being able to express myself is truly, truly worth it.
20/11/25: hate to all those who tag their explicit works as mature
19/11/25 20:26: Hoping to finally go to a library and just out more in general soon... excited for the future yippee!!!
25/10/25 13:00: Tahani from The Good Place i'm in lesbians with you
28/9/25 19:25: Just saw Spider-Man 2 in cinema OUGHHHH... OHHH my god. The soundtrack for the Raimi trilogy is so iconic and distinct, there's like this one specific leitmotif in it... Insomniac's Spider-Man has something similiar. Listening to it over all the speakers was SO GOODDD AGH. I was literally transcending guys, being so fr right now. THE SOUNDS, TOO; those moments where you can hear Dock Ock getting closer, I could FEEL the vibrations of every thud. It was so awesome!!! The scene where Harry unmasked Peter reminded me of ASM #122; Peter leaving Harry when he's in emotional turmoil because of a situation including the girl he loves.
22/9/25 18:09: HARRY IS SUCH A CUTIE IN SPIDER-MAN: THE ANIMATED SERIES AGHHH
19/9/25 17:39: Guess who cried because of something that happened at a till yet again...
Something i've noticed is that people feel entitled to your speech. That's not neccessarily bad on it's own; I think we naturally expect a response when speaking to someone. What matters is how someone reacts when that expectation isn't met.
19/8/25 18:58: FUCK EVE FOR EATING THAT FUCKASS APPLE (period pain)
31/7/25 16:50: I. Hate. ROLLING PASTRY RARGHHHHHHHH
28/7/25 20:20: My cookies are perfect circles this time!
27/7/25 18:30: RADIOACTIVE scientist yaoi holy moly.
27/7/25 16:46: Why was kraven turned into a furry AGAIN!?
27/7/25 14:26: Ultimate Spider-Man's Electro was Spamton before Spamton was Spamton.
26/7/25 23:09: Watching Ultimate Spider-Man: can't believe they've got tragic scientist yaoi (Curt and Otto) and toxic scientist yaoi (Otto and Curt) in here.
23/7/25 21:09: Today I volunteered for the first time at a charity shop, baked some shortbread biscuits, and organised my clothes! Good day!!!
19/5/25 21:51: Most abysmal period pain: worse cramps ever: back pain, trembling, sweating, nausea, MY BODY IS TRYING TO KILL ME OFF.
15/7/25 21:36: SIGHHH someone make a video showing all the dialogues from the Befriend Asterius and Theseus mod PLEASEEEEEE being a console player strikes again. 💔💔
3/7/25 17:10: Why am I falling in love with the Interdimensional Prince save me.
22/6/25 02:21: I hope someone records all the routes for Jean Loo Pissoir soon. </3 (That name must be crazy out of context. He's the toilet in Date Everything. Actually, maybe it's crazier in context.)
21/6/25 08:18: A spider just nonchalantly crawled out from under my quilt ???
19/6/25: Should get my braces off next time I go YIPPEEEE, last day of school tomorrow YAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY
17/6/25 18:51: Woah, I'm pretty sure it's been a week of sleeping well... I really thought I would fail via revenge bedtime procrasination on Sunday, like usual, but no!!! Even if I falter, I'm hopeful I can keep this up into being a regular habit. :D (CRAZY hack: turns out taking your medication prescribed for helping with sleep helps with sleeping !!?!)
16/6/25: Today I pulled Ace of Pentacles, a seed of centeredness, prosperity, and security. Pretty good for the start of the last week at school, right? Good things are ahead!! :)
13/6/25 14:19: My life is peace and happiness when I don't have school.
12/6/25 15:56: Trying to work on the embarrassment I get from my 'I'm being watched and they can hear my thoughts' thing.
11/6/25: Reminders:
10/6/25 16:04: I GOT GLASSES I CAN PLAY BIDEO GAMES AGAIN YIPPEEEEE
9/6/25 13:56: ONLY ONE EXAM LEFT!! free me.........
8/6/25 20:20: Ughh tragedy save me. Save me relationships that could never work out despite how much the character(s) try and try. Characters digging their own graves save me!!!!!!!
7/6/25 14:50: SOAKED from rain but it was worth it for the Barbie, High School Musical 2 and Weezer cds i got...
6/6/25 18:00: This english paper was easier than the first one. Glad this is the last one, though.
5/6/25 15:32: Today I did things I was bad at in front of people I was scared of and it was okay.
4/6/25 20:10: Tired. I was scared during the maths exam, because the teacher kept looking at my paper which made me keep freezing. At break my friends and I played with some LPS, which was fun.
3/6/25 00:47: Whoever decided to add the 'Sent from Outlook for iOS' thing watch your back...............
2/6/25 16:35: I heart hoarding worthless things.
1/6/25 03:45: First of the month !!!! It's almost half way through 2025 that's crazy... only two weeks with exams left, Is think.
31/5/25 19:05: I was SO tired earlier but now I'm actually doing stuff I feel fine lol. Currently: adding more links, making the new page design accessible on mobile, and polishing my TSSM notes for a diary entry.
30/5/25 22:46: Yum yum yummy cake.
29/5/25 19:13: Going to finally get a new pair of glasses. Excited to play video games again! :3
27/5/25 19:24: HOLY MOLY I just realised my first blorbo blog entry was A YEAR AGO ?????? Huh. Who. What.
27/5/25 14:51: I like birds (messengers with wings) and angels (messengers with wings).
26/5/25 15:37: Commented on someone's guestbox and all my emojis went wrong EMBARRASED. </3
26/5/25 13:30: Details and summary LOVE to see me coming.
24/5/25 15:20: At my niece's birthday party on my seeing the life I've always wanted grind.
23/5/25 18:56: I managed to write like 6 paragraphs.
22/5/25 19:56: My ass is NOT gonna be able to write anything for the English GCSE.
21/5/25 11:15: RIP Dmitri you would've loved making OCs.
19/5/25 17:33: Did a scrapbook entry for the first time in a while.
18/5/25 19:04: I.G.G.Y CAME HOME !!1!!!1! YIPPEEEEE
16/5/25 18:55: Today was good! I laughed and talked a lot. Although that means I'm exhausted, so thank goodness it's Friday.
16/5/25 01:21: Finally decided on a tagging system for chameleon things. Now I just need to go through all my reblogs and re-tag them... x_x
15/5/25 18:11: There were many questions about circles.. I don't know anything about circles... Later at school, my friend tried to heat up this beaded snake plush and it combusted. Its grave is the staff room's bin.
13/5/25 17:40: First GCSE exam! It was alright.. there were a couple I didn't know the answer to so I just bullshitted them and might still get a mark or two. There were, like, way too many math questions, like, umm I thought this was biology. >:,(
10/5/25 21:07: My phone needs charging, my laptop needs charging, my media player needs charging, I NEED CHARGING! Are there any other things that need charging i should know about???
9/5/25 17:05: My laptop is kinda broken... It randomly turns off, and randomly won't turn on. If it does actually break, I have all the important stuff (not that much) saved to an SD card, so I won't lose too much. and I can use my sister's laptop until christmas. Let's hope for the best, though!
8/5/25: When a shampoo bottle is nearly empty so while you're trying to squeeze some out it's panting like it's giving birth and you're gathering all the bodily fluids in your hand.
30/4/25 21:22: I have £6.66 worth in 20p coins.
30/4/25 14:07: Why is there literally enough hair in this carpet to make a wig (<- hoovering).
18/2/25 18:54: Every time I think about telling someone my thoughts I expect to be laughed at, yet everytime I do they treat me kindly and lovingly. Waoh. I will learn nothing from this.
04/2/25 23:20: I was being dramatic and everything was in my head I love my friends. ❤︎
09/1/25 19:16: I hate CSS why is my vertical scrollbar not showinggg when i only have 'overflow-x: hiddennnnnnn' hahaaaaa.
06/1/25 18:52: Tries some clown make-up with the shitty Halloween make-up I had left over. :D Very tired because I stayed up all night zz.
04/1/25 06:51: Cat.. Trying to walk on keyboard... Agh!!2!
04/1/25 04:07: Cat.. Blocking screen... Agh!!1!
24/12/24 19:04: Ho ho hoe.
19/12/24 16:36: Burst out crying while paying for 2 packs of gum and blu-tack at the shop... A nice lady paid for my pack of gum though.
09/12/24 11:56: Do I have the time? Oh, yeah, let me just check my AWESOME SPIDER-MAN WATCH.
07/12/24 18:20: Straight up walking it. And by it. Haha, well lets just say. Underground.
06/12/2024 22:22: Microblog is here!! Currently having a sleepover at a friends. :-]