04/02/2025

Sweet 16 to me!

I didn't go to school today, but still woke up around 7 am since I heard my mum telling my brother not to open my presents :,). My dad gave me 2 presents, and my mum gave me £100 since I didn't know what to ask her for. I have basically everything I could want, so... I'm mainly just waiting to get a bank card to order craft stuff online, like fabric paint. It'd feel weird to ask my mum for fabric paint for my birthday, I think. For some reason there's issues with my identification, so it's taking a while to set up an account. I have at least £300 now... to be honest, having that much kinda stresses me out. I'm not sure why, I've just always been weird about money. Anyways, my dad got me a 3D Spider-Man jigsaw and a notebook with a Spidey squishy attatched to the front that comes with a pen! I really like them; they're both pretty unique, and the notebook is functional. I got cards from my mum, dad, siblings (from mum), big sister, niece & nephew (from big sister), grandparents, and my mum's boyfriend. With a lottery ticket, since that's his thing now. The card he got was actually one I've been looking at and wanting in Sainsbury's! Isn't that lucky? It comes with a Spider-Man button badge. The one my dad got me was also Spider-Man. ^_^

I went food shopping with mum, which made me super tired for some reason. I'm not sure why, since I think I went to sleep around 9pm ater taking 2 circadin pills. Unfortunately, when I fall asleep from melatonin and not from sleep deprivation I wake up every couple of hours... So maybe it's just because it wasn't very high quality sleep. I got this blue raspberry brain licker drink that was ok, but the fizziness and weird tangyness ruined it, and a Spider-Man face cloth, which I saw like months ago and wanted. The part of washing your face that puts me off the most is that you get your hands wet, your hair wet, your clothes, arms, floor, everything!! So, hopefully this will help with that and I'll start washing my face... With Spider-Man's face! I ain't ever seen Peter with pimples ;3

We had McDonald's for dinner, which was yummy, and I had a nap when we got back home. When I woke up, it was to my mum and older brother arguing. How lovely! So I just went back to sleep, haha. They argue a lot, but it still stresses me out every time. I got out of bed when I heard my older sister and her kids were here! Well, my niece. Sorry but my nephew is still a baby and isn't doing anything yet, so I'm not interested in him. I took care of her, listened to my sister and mum talk, looked at the cake mum made, tidied my room a bit and found better places for things... I helped my niece feed the cats treats to stop her from going through the cat food. She's obsessed with cats. Not as obsessed as Willow is with food though, jesus. She started going feral when I showed her the treat packet.

For tea we had pizza, which was also yummy! I love pizza, but sometimes it can come weird. I'm so glad it was like the way I like it!! My niece was getting tired by this point, so we quickly did the cake before they left. I blew out the candle and made a wish, but I'm not sure if I should tell you guys :P. Even so, I hope I'll get closer to achieving it now I'm 16; My GP should allow me to try medication for my anxiety. Is it so much to ask to be able to handle any small social interaction without feeling like I'm going to combust... Another thing I'll be able to do now I'm 16 is volunteer at this charity shop! I'm quite nervous about it. Hopefully I can just do everything not relating to talking to people. Wishing for the best!